I’ll Find You on a Beautiful Day: Episode 15
by quirkycase
What happens to a relationship once trust has been broken? Our heroine grapples with what to do in the wake of her aunt’s shocking confession that throws everything she believed into question. There’s no going back now that the truth is out, and it’s time for everyone to decide how they’ll move forward.
EPISODE 15: “Until We Meet Again”
As they sit in the car, Hae-won admits this deceit has made her unsure of people. She can’t trust anything anymore. Eun-seob stares at her sadly and takes her hand. They sit in silence. She doesn’t want to go home, so Eun-seob asks where she wants to go.
At Hodu House, Myung-yeo tells her sister not to worry – Eun-seob went after Hae-won. Myung-joo asks if this is what she wanted when she wrote the manuscript. Myung-yeo wants to pay for what she did and needed to tell Hae-won eventually, anyway. “Will you turn yourself in?” Myung-joo asks her sister.
Myung-joo simmers with anger, asking what those seven years behind bars were for, then. Myung-yeo counters she should never have taken the fall, but Myung-joo still insists it was her fault. Myung-yeo asks tiredly why Myung-joo feels that way. Myung-joo argues that if she hadn’t married an abusive man, Myung-yeo would never have been in that situation.
If Myung-yeo turns herself in, it’ll be like punishment all over again for Myung-joo. “Then what about me? Do I just keep living like this?” Myung-yeo needs to come clean and be punished to live. Myung-joo desperately shouts she should write about it and call it fiction, then.
That won’t cut it for Myung-yeo. She cries as she reveals she dreams of her brother-in-law every night. Myung-joo bitterly asks if he blames Myung-yeo, but Myung-yeo says it’s the opposite. He’s so kind to her it drives her mad. The sisters hang their heads and cry.
The following morning, Hae-won wakes in Eun-seob’s car. They’re parked in front of her old house in Seoul. Eun-seob stands outside, staring at the gate.
Hwi smiles brightly as she bikes alongside Yeong-soo, but that quickly changes when Jae-in comes riding up. Hwi speeds up, yelling for Jae-in to go away as Jae-in screams she’ll teach her a lesson once she catches her. Yeong-soo rides leisurely behind them.
On Jang-woo’s way to work, a man stops him to ask if he and Eun-shil went out the previous night. Jang-woo denies it and mumbles to himself that they made sure to go where no one could see them. Another resident informs him Eun-shil is leaving today to go back to work. He’s shocked she knows he’s had a crush on Eun-shil since he was a high schooler. A passerby notes Eun-shil’s bus is at 3:00. Ha.
At Hodu House, Myung-joo quietly tells Myung-yeo to turn herself in if she’s having a hard time. She thought Myung-yeo would be happy. We flash back to Myung-joo in prison, reading one of Myung-yeo’s letters that assured her she and Hae-won were doing well. Myung-joo had no idea Myung-yeo was struggling so much and not moving on. She turns to look Myung-yeo in the face. “I’m truly sorry.”
In Seoul, Eun-seob suggests they go inside her old house since Hae-won said it’s deserted. They go in using the spare key that’s still in its old spot. On the ledge in front of the house, Hae-won finds a recent electricity bill addressed to her mother.
Myung-joo leaves Hodu House, telling Myung-yeo to let her know when she’s going to turn herself in. Myung-yeo stops her to ask where she lives, and Myung-joo surprises her by saying at her old house. She’s lived there since she got released.
After looking around inside, Hae-won comes back out to tell Eun-seob it seems like her mom’s been living here. She gets worked up as she claims yet another thing was kept hidden from her. Eun-seob ventures Myung-joo probably thought the truth would hurt Hae-won, and she wanted to try to deal with it alone for as long as she could.
“But I’m her family. Is it really fair that I didn’t know any of this?” Eun-seob supposes she just didn’t want Hae-won to get hurt and chose to hurt instead. Eun-seob hugs her as Hae-won’s eyes fill with tears.
At school, Jae-in comes up to Hwi and praises her bike-riding ability. Hwi politely requests she stop speaking to her since she hasn’t gotten over the trauma from their fight. Ha. Jae-in smiles and pats her on the shoulder – Hwi puts her fists up in fighting stance – claiming she’ll see her tomorrow. Hwi protests since she has a date with Yeong-soo. Jae-in yells that Yeong-soo is hers.
She takes a breath and, as a sunbae, offers to put in a good word with Hwi’s classmates so she won’t be so much of an outcast. Hwi scoffs to cover her surprise. Jae-in says she’s only letting things go since Yeong-soo asked her to. She even takes a we-made-up selfie. Pfft. After she leaves, Hwi moans about her hurt pride.
By the bus stop, Jang-woo is holding a white rose and rehearsing what to say to Eun-shil. He peeks around the corner to see Eun-shil staring and waving him over. In his usual style, he endearingly stammers and rapid fires questions at her before offering to drive her (in his dad’s car) all the way back to Gangneung. She happily shoves her suitcase at him and asks where the car is.
After he casually hands her the flower and gets all awkward, Eun-shil stares and notes with a smile that he doesn’t turn red when he sees her now. She steps closer … and he turns red. Heh. She munches on rice cakes from a bag she pulled out of her pocket and asks Jang-woo if they can stop and eat on the way.
Jang-woo mentions that he heard she broke up with her boyfriend. Eun-shil whines that everyone seems to know like it’s been posted somewhere. With no preamble, Jang-woo says his mom wants him to quickly get married and have kids. Ha!
Eun-seob drives Hae-won back home. She’s ready to go in and ask Myung-yeo for answers. If Eun-seob is right about her reasons, she might be able to understand. Eun-seob pulls her in for a hug. As a tear falls, Hae-won says she envies him, “because you’re this warm.”
In her room, Myung-yeo opens Yoon-taek’s “All My Firsts” and reads the following passage:
Do you know what warmth is? She asked me, and I answered. It’s when my cold hand touches your cold hand and we both become warm. When loneliness meets loneliness and becomes coziness. When sadness meets sadness and becomes happiness. When a cool breeze collides against another cool breeze and becomes soft snow. That’s what warmth is.
Hae-won calls her aunt out to talk. They sit across from each other at the table, and Hae-won asks her to explain. Myung-yeo opens with, “I killed your dad.” She assumes Hae-won read the details in the manuscript. They both begin to cry as Myung-yeo apologizes.
Hae-won asks why she was the last to know. Myung-yeo responds it would hurt her too much, and they couldn’t do that to her. Hae-won wants to know why now. Myung-yeo: “Because I’m turning myself in.” She deserves to pay for her crimes.
She wasn’t planning on writing again, but she needed to earn money to at least provide for Hae-won. When Yoon-taek suggested writing about her life, she saw it as her chance. She’d write about the shocking true event, make tons of money and turn herself in. Now that Myung-joo has finally agreed, she can turn herself in. Done saying her piece, Myung-yeo heads back to her room.
Hae-won goes out and drinks alone, ruminating on Myung-yeo and her mother. She recalls her aunt fainting, fighting with her mother and Myung-yeo stopping her at the river. On the train back that day, Myung-yeo told her not to die. If Hae-won dies, so will Myung-yeo, Myung-joo and her grandmother. It may seem like they don’t care, but they do. In the present, Hae-won downs soju as she cries.
At the bookshop the next morning, Eun-seob stocks shelves and waits for the phone to ring. Hae-won wakes hungover in an unfamiliar room and is startled when Bo-yeong pops her head in. She fixes Hae-won breakfast and explains that she brought Hae-won to her place after seeing her passed out in the restaurant.
Hae-won quietly eats while Bo-yeong asks why she drank so much. Did her and Eun-seob fight? Ignoring her questions, Hae-won says, “I liked you.” That’s why what Bo-yeong did hurt. It was hard to forgive her, though, since her words caused so much damage. Their relationship can’t be what it was.
Bo-yeong muses that things get worn with time, and relationships aren’t perfect. “What’s wrong with a small crack, and what’s wrong with hurting each other’s feelings a little?” Life is full of imperfect people making mistakes and trying to set things right. She knows she hurt Hae-won deeply, but she wants the opportunity to fix things. If Hae-won isn’t ready, she’ll wait.
As she sits on the bus, Hae-won thinks back to when she was little. Her and Myung-yeo braided her grandmother’s hair horribly, and they laughed as she accused them of making her look like an alien. They then chased Myung-joo around trying to do the same to her hair.
Upon arriving home, Hae-won sees a police car out front. Recalling her aunt’s determination to turn herself in, she runs toward the house. Hae-won grabs the confused cop in a panic and starts saying that they’re mistaken; it’s not true.
She sees cops leading a group of people from behind Hodu House to the police cars. Myung-yeo comes up, and the cop explains a naked group of people were having a party and ran this way. Pfft. He turns to Hae-won to ask what she wanted to say earlier, but she replies it’s nothing and hurries inside.
Inside, Myung-yeo off-handedly asks if Hae-won thought she’d turned herself in and panicked. Hae-won doesn’t answer and instead wonders why she put that picture of her grandmother up – it wasn’t there last time she was here. Myung-yeo put it up after she grandmother died since she misses her.
Hae-won admits she kind of hates Myung-yeo. She thought she could understand, but she can’t. She thinks family members should share their pain with each other. “Let’s hurt together. Don’t turn yourself in.” Myung-yeo turns in surprise as Hae-won asks if she can’t hold on for her like she did for her mom. She reminds her of when she said they’d all die if Hae-won did. If her aunt turns herself in, Hae-won will have to live that nightmare over again.
Hae-won wants her to keep living her life. But she needs some time to sort her own feelings out. “I’ll leave,” Hae-won promises. She walks out, and Myung-yeo lets out a shuddering breath, steadying herself on the counter. Hae-won heads over to the bookshop to talk to Eun-seob. He seems to know what’s coming.
Eun-seob asks if she’s okay. She shakes her head but smiles. Myung-yeo wanted to turn herself in, but she told her not to. Although, she can’t look Myung-yeo in the eye. “So I said I’d leave,” she admits softly. “Spring is here.”
She musters up a smile and wishes him the best with the bookshop. She hopes he can always be a warm person. “And there has never been a moment when my heart has not been true. You know that, right?” Eun-seob gives a sad smile and nods. Hae-won holds back tears and tells him to take care. Eun-seob watches her go silently.
Hae-won goes back home and utters a lackluster “I’m home” to the empty room. In her room that night, she cries thinking about Eun-seob. Suddenly, she bolts up and races back to the bookshop, but it’s closed. There’s a note claiming the bookshop will be closed for a few days.
Hae-won goes running into the mountain and surprises Eun-seob at the cabin. She flings her arms around him and sobs that she’s sorry. He slowly embraces her back as we hear his blog entry about her leaving and how he hopes she can leave happily.
The following morning, Eun-seob wakes up alone in the cabin. We hear Hae-won’s voice: “Eun-seob, I’m leaving now.” Is he disappointed she keeps doing whatever she wants? He’s not. “Even so, I love you. Goodbye, Hae-won.” Eun-seob sits on the porch, alone. Meanwhile, Hae-won digs up the phone she buried by her dad’s tree.
Eun-seob’s Blog Post
As I continue to post my diary, the weight of each day gets heavier. Though the days piled up, I wasn’t gifted with anything particularly different. But when she came to me this winter and we shared our love, those days didn’t pile up evenly like before. The weight of today is different than before. Next winter will probably be even more different. The weight of the upcoming winter that I cannot fathom yet. I put up a sign that the bookstore will be closed for a few days. It feels like a bowstring that’s been tightly pulled back. I’ve decided to let things go and rest for a while.
COMMENTS
Hae-won is leaving, after all. In light of the family stuff she’s dealing with and all the associations that town holds, I get her needing to leave. But do she and Eun-seob have to break up? They could discuss options, at least. I don’t know how clearly Hae-won is thinking right now in her grief and confusion, and I wonder if she’ll regret this later. As for Eun-seob … *Sigh* He was so resigned to her leaving that he didn’t even talk to her about it; he just accepted it like it’s an inevitability. With how alone and vulnerable she’s feeling, shouldn’t he have made more of an effort? He’s warm and supportive, which is great, but he’s solely reactive. He never takes action or fights for her.
When he tried to run, she chased him down and fought for him. Now, their roles have reversed, and she’s become like the boy in wolf’s eyelash story. Eun-seob watched her struggle with such sadness and empathy since he knows what it’s like to feel isolated and lose your trust in people. He’s come out the other side with her help, and now it’s his turn to offer her support and connection. Even if he thinks she’ll still leave, that doesn’t mean he shouldn’t at least tell her that he doesn’t want to lose her.
While one relationship is possibly wilting, another is blossoming. After more than a decade, Jang-woo got Eun-shil to accept his white rose. They’re both quirky characters that go well together, and I’m glad Jang-woo’s feelings are finally being reciprocated. It’s funny that every relationship pairing in this show has an alpha female: Eun-shil and Jang-woo, Hae-won and Eun-seob, Myung-yeo and Yoon-taek, Hwi (and Jae-in) and Yeong-soo, and even Eun-seob’s parents Yeo-jung and Jong-pil. The writer is clearly a fan of women with strong personalities.
Myung-yeo finally got Myung-joo to understand her, and now she’s got Hae-won trapping her again. It’s selfish for her to ask Myung-yeo not to turn herself in, but I get it. She’s the kid and Myung-yeo’s like a parent, so there’s a sense of entitlement there. Kids often expect parents to cater to them, especially in situations like this where they’ve been hurt. Plus, Hae-won has had no time to process this. In the same breath, she was told her aunt killed her dad and that she plans to turn herself in. If she’s given some time, I think she could come to understand Myung-yeo’s need to take responsibility for her actions. Getting away for a while might give Hae-won some perspective.
One small gripe I have is that Myung-joo doesn’t feel very well developed, so she remains a little too enigmatic. I know the focus of the story has been on Hae-won and Myung-yeo with Myung-joo acting as a catalyst, but I wish they would give us more insight into her behavior, particularly when it comes to Hae-won. I still don’t get why Myung-joo was so harsh and wouldn’t accept Hae-won’s letters back then. We can guess she was trying to distance herself from Hae-won so the negative impact of having a “criminal” parent would be less, but that’s merely speculation. Even if that’s the case, it doesn’t make much sense for her to entirely cut her daughter out without any explanation.
Keeping things from people “for their own good” is rarely that. Good intentions don’t make up for the hurt of secrecy and lies, as Hae-won found. Trust is fundamental in relationships, and broken trust is hard to repair. I’m with Hae-won that family should share burdens rather than trying to manage alone. You may think you’re protecting someone by withholding information, like they did to Hae-won, or by shouldering responsibility, like Myung-joo did for Myung-yeo. But in the end, it may do more harm than good. What you think someone needs and what they actually need may be different which is why communication is key. That’s not something Hae-won’s family has been adept at, but hopefully, this situation will teach them to be more open with each other. And maybe it’ll teach Eun-seob to start speaking his mind and do something.
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1 OldLawyer
April 23, 2020 at 8:51 PM
I am about to watch episode 16- so let us see if I am right. Eun-seob, who was raised by his father to simply accept fate and isolation has already decided once that such an approach to life does not suit his real character. If he can just really understand himself then he will take action- and go get Hae-won.
Perhaps I will be wrong. We will see.
I am also rooting for Hwi and Yeong-soo.
And I am looking for Eun-shil to move forward with Jang-woo.
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2 WishfulToki
April 23, 2020 at 8:58 PM
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WishfulToki
April 23, 2020 at 9:03 PM
Gonna post this in the final recap so I don't spoil it for anyone hehe.
The highlight of this episode was Jang Woo... 💓 Come to think of it, any scene with Lee Jae Wook in this drama is my favourite scene. He's adorable. Guys like him don't exist right? *cries* Eun Shil is so lucky he never moved on from his crush.
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3 latebloomer
April 23, 2020 at 9:02 PM
As much as this may be a story about love, it's also a story about turning your back on love. Myung-yeo turned her back on Yoon-taek for her own reasons, and Myung-joo did the same to Hae-won, and both of Eun-seob's bio parents did it to him. All with devastating consequences. Sadly now Hae-won is doing the same. For whatever reason, sorting out her feelings about her family makes breaking up her only option in her mind. So much for love.
I feel sorry for Eun-seob, because he knows from his mom that real love is giving. His gift is to let Hae-won go without any reproach and without asking anything for himself. But he deserves a better kind of love than he's getting from Hae-won.
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4 superwhopotterlock
April 23, 2020 at 9:19 PM
Even I felt the same way about the separation. Why do they have to break up? There is a possibility of long distance?? This makes me feel bad about the way HW kind of forced ES to accept his feelings for her. I know that wasn't the case and ES had his own share of problems, but looking back I can't help but feel if it was better that he never acknowledged his feelings. He knew that she'll return once spring comes (even though that wasn't the reason he was holding back I know). I shouldn't be feeling this way, but I'm angry with how both of them handled it. Looking back, I feel it was selfish of HW to start the relationship if she was planning to leave anyway. And the way she broke up was so formal 😳-My feelings were sincere, but goodbye. And ES for once, could take initiative and fight for her. Not about staying back;ofc she needed time to process everything but it could've been done without breaking up!!
I'm really frustrated with how things turned out😤 but I understand if people don't share the same sentiment.
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WishfulToki
April 23, 2020 at 9:27 PM
I share your sentiment but am saving my long analysis for the final episode. I was disappointed to say the least that Eun Seob didn't ask her to stay. Even if she said no, it would have been a sign that he's made some improvement regarding his anxiety and abandonment issues. But no, he says nothing, closes up shop and heads to the mountains. More later.
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stpauligurl
April 24, 2020 at 4:41 AM
If I remember right, wasn't there some point where she was trying to talk with him about her leaving? And all she wanted was for him to ask her not to go.
She seemed like she really didn't want to leave in the spring because she was happy there, but this revelation changed everything for her.
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superwhopotterlock
April 24, 2020 at 5:43 AM
yeah I think there was some monologue like that. But there was also an unspoken understanding between them from the beginning that she'll leave. His diary entry and her non answer when he asked her about it indicate that. What would she do there? She couldn't forever work at the bookstore and there was no provision there for her to teach cello. I think the truth about her aunt just gave her a more concrete reason to leave; she would've left regardless.
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miss h
April 24, 2020 at 8:30 AM
Yes. ES is too passive, but I can't blame him for believing she would leave and then not asking her to stay when she didn't have a long-term job there nor had she looked into anything. If the truth hadn't come out and he had asked her to stay, I wonder if the romance of it would have lasted.
But while I wasn't bothered about ES not asking her to stay, I was screaming at both to at least talk about staying in touch if not the possibility of a long term relationship. But I get it. ES is ES and HW ran away from Seoul and her job when things were hard, literally burying her connection to it, and I think she was looking to do the same this time.
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Eazal
April 24, 2020 at 5:48 AM
I know we all wanted him to ask her to stay, but I think his not saying anything was truly in character. I mean: he didn't tell Hwi "don't cry, I won't leave". He didn't call her mum "mum" or told her "I love you". And he loves mum and knew in that moment that he wouldn't leave. But he didn't tell.
I also wished he had said "Stay" and it would be so romantic...
But he didn't and to me it felt REAL.
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Ashes2Ashes
April 24, 2020 at 7:58 AM
I feel the same frustrations about ES. Befor the whole family history came out, HW was definitely angling for ES to ask her to stay. Real life worries like career and monetary prospects were never gonna be roadblocks for our leads. Our hero is supposedly making a living from a bookshop that no customer seems to visit, remember.. 🤷 their issues were always going to have to do with their emotional baggages from the get go. Sure ES's behaviour is in line with the character we met in the initial EPs, but what of the character growth.. didn't he claim to no longer question his place in the world. Wasn't his decision(?) to break free of his uncle supposed to come with the realization that he can and will try to break free of the mental barriers he had grown up with. Given the start and stop mode of his character evolution, I wasn't particularly surprised that he didn't try to hold HW back , but that doesn't make it any less frustrating.
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skelly
April 24, 2020 at 11:18 AM
I don't really think HW was planning on leaving; up until this crisis, it appeared she was looking for reasons to stay and perhaps was hoping that ES would make some move - she certainly was disappointed to read in ES's diary that he expected her to leave. But this crisis naturally sent her into a tailspin, and ES did little to help. Yes, he gave her hugs and sympathetic glances, but when he spoke it was to side with her mom and aunt, defending their decision to keep things from HW. When she said she was leaving, he accepted it without an ounce of protest. I can understand her distrust of everyone and not feeling like she has anyone in her corner.
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5 neener ~ Inside the Magic Shop ~
April 23, 2020 at 10:08 PM
After Hae-won's initial reaction about the truth and how she focused on who killed dad rather than why/how dad died, made me less pay attention in her scenes this episode. I was disappointed because she somehow knew that her dad wasn't the nicest and the best. I get that her trust was broken and it felt like everyone was against her, I guess I can't relate much to her in this regard.
Jang-woo ah, oh Jang-woo. Finally! Can Lee Jae-wook be in another drama where he has more than 10mins of screen time?
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superwhopotterlock
April 23, 2020 at 10:26 PM
I think that it's natural that she concentrated on who killed her father- after all it was her aunt, who had taken care of her for so many years and who was her pillar of support- who was responsible and not her mother who was emotionally distant from the very beginning and just became more so after going to prison. She would've felt betrayed. Not about her dad- she obviously knew about it and even if she didn't the trial would've definitely revealed it. She thought her aunt was the only person whom she could rely on- so finding out she killed her father had to hurt.
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neener ~ Inside the Magic Shop ~
April 23, 2020 at 10:32 PM
That's true. I guess I hated dad more and I wanted Hae-won to hate dad too and not aunt. After all, Dad was an abuser.
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Yuyuu, The Drama Queen
April 24, 2020 at 1:58 AM
I wish the show had really explored Hae-won's attitude towards her dad a bit more. She knew about her dad, but what are her thoughts on all that?
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neener ~ Inside the Magic Shop ~
April 24, 2020 at 2:09 AM
Right? I wanted to know this.
Eazal
April 24, 2020 at 5:43 AM
She was just a child.
He was nice to him.
I can't help thinking we all seeing this from an adult point of view, but she was just a child. She may have heard in the trial and she surely knew, but child victims of abuse tend to hide the truth (as a pure mechanism of surviving).
She bought camelias which where her dad's favorite and she always called her dad. He was good to her.
So, so difficult.
6 kippeum (ft. liberation and bath robots)
April 23, 2020 at 10:10 PM
I'm glad Eun-seob didn't ask or has never asked her to stay, especially at this time when Hae-won just levelled up some emotional baggage. He's passive (more than I'd wanted him to be) but he's not selfish. That he stayed silent during that exchange didn't give me the impression that he's resigned at all. He's probably feeling more upset that she had such a painful reason to leave.
In hindsight I did kinda feel it was a bit unfair of Hae-won to start a relationship and confront him about his feelings, knowing she'll leave soon. But I'm choosing to look at the prettier things in the drama.
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Yuyuu, The Drama Queen
April 24, 2020 at 2:14 AM
For all the responsibility we can put on Hae-won for initiating this relationship when she knew she was eventually going to leave, let's not forget that Eun-seop also knew about it. He's a person with AGENCY, and I feel that he's as much responsible in that sense, especially since a relationship goes both ways.
He was reluctant at first of course, and even though Hae-won was more straightforward towards the possibility of a relationship, she (1) never guaranteed that she would always be there/stay (even if she were to stay, I think life itself really doesn't guarantee that you'll "always be there"), and (2) when Eun-seop was initially at a loss on whether to acknowledge her feelings, she was really resigned to let it go UNTIL he came forward and also made it known he reciprocated her feelings. Above anything else, I think Eun-seop never even thought Hae-won could actually ever like him. The fact that she did was an oppotunity he couldn't pass up, and even though it wasn't an easy decision for him, I think for him, the opportunity to share their love outweighed the possibility of Hae-won leaving. Her leaving was kind of a given in his mind, and I'm convinced he was resigned about that from the beginning.
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Eazal
April 24, 2020 at 5:52 AM
In fact, he wrote about it and even told her, that she may leave and it was ok for her to do so. And as someone who needs to be alone when he needs to think and that who has been away, he understands that HW has to leave. It doesn't mean he wants her to be far from him, but... can you hold someone by your side just because you want?
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Ashes2Ashes
April 24, 2020 at 8:10 AM
I don't think most people are frustrated because he didn't ask her to stay. It's totally understandable that she needs to leave given the emotional rollercoaster she has been in the last (48 hours?) It's just that he seems to have already decided that she would one day leave (even before any if this had happened) . HW has been upfront about her feelings and is forever initiating things. And notice that she never actually brings up leaving once they are in a relationship. She seems incredibly deflated when she reads his thoughts on her leaving. It just shows that he's still afraid of stepping into the sunlight. HW knows that ES loves her because of his actions but he's forever holding back when it comes to charting a future together. His words at her parent's house and her reactions were telling.
He can completely empathize with the Shim sisters who would rather suffer in silence than open up before their belove child .But HW is not of the silent suffering school of thought. To her, sharing your troubles and being honest is how you show your love and be a family. And she seems to realize this fundamental difference in their ideas at the moment. She totally sees and acknowledges his love but can't at this point receive love without the terrifying courage it takes to be vulnerable with your truth and heart.
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7 Eazal
April 23, 2020 at 10:28 PM
First of all, I have to say that ES not telling HW to stay felt to me in character. I mean, we've been talking about how passive has he been sometimes, letting HW alway initiate everything, and now that she's telling she's leaving he understands. After all, he's always thought she would leave "when the weather is fine". Sure he could just have said, "we can have a distance relation" but that's what we all want ES to do, not what ES would do. At least that's what I think. And after all, HW needs time. She needs it.
I also loved the way the relation between BY and HW was handled. It's not like they are going to be BFF, but at least they can work a new relation or friendship from here. I can see how BY has changed from "everybody hates me" to understanding what she did wrong. I still don't like her, but I acknowledge she's advanced, and she's being honest. And as I look back to my teenage day and I remember some friendships and how the've changed now, I can see they can work a new relationship.
On a lighter note, how adorable are JW and WS together? So different and yet so similar!! Awwwww
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Ashes2Ashes
April 24, 2020 at 8:16 AM
Yes to how BY and HW's past was finally used well this episode. BY did take the first steps in the long road of redemption by taking HW in at night. And her words on the realities of the imperfections of relationships and mistakes that people make seemed to reach HW at the right time . It seemed to help HW reconcile her ideal notions of trust and love with the messy realties of being humans who err and clumsily try to make their ways back to each other.
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8 Kurama
April 23, 2020 at 11:53 PM
The Mother, the Aunt and HW are very selfcentred persons. I don't mean selfish. But they react to the situation how it affects themselves. They all act cool and don't share their feelings. Honestly I just want to take one to hit the other with. They love each other, they care about each other and they want happiness for their family, why can't they talk like normal people, share their feelings, try to understand what the other is feeling...
HW is sad because they lied to her and I understand. But for me I would have so many questions for the Aunt : since when she knew for the abuse? Did she try to ask her Mother to divorce? To take her home? Did she Grandma know? Etc.
There is only one episode and I feel the writer forget ES's story. He left for 3 years to take care of his mother, his uncle... ES's dialogues are gone... All we have it's thoughts. He hugged a lot but I want him to speak! I need him to open to his family not only by gift like the saddle but with words. His scenes with his family are nice to see.
I missed the book club together.
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rue
April 24, 2020 at 7:00 AM
They kind of just forgot about the book club there did they?
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9 earthna
April 24, 2020 at 12:31 AM
So grateful for that scene with Hae-won and Bo-young. BY is right. It's not like you can't go on just because there's a slight crack in the relationship. It happens. We makes mistakes, learn from them, apologize, and do better. My bestfriend and I had a huge fight in high school. There were rumors going around about me and they all thought they were true and talking behind my back. I felt so betrayed when she came forward and talked to me about it. We didn't talk to each other for a long time but we reconciled after that and cried and cried. It still hurts when I think about it but we all learned from our mistakes and never had such a problem again. Been friends now for 21 years and I can't imagine life not having her as my friend.
Sorry. I got distracted there. Lol. But yeah, before, Hae-won talked about trust being like glass that will always have a crack no matter how you stick it together. I think that connects to this. Then, that scene made Hae-won realize that okay, that already happened with her aunt. What do we do next? Can it still be fixed? Am I going to throw this away or live with it having a crack on it?
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Eazal
April 24, 2020 at 5:55 AM
Totally agree with you about BY. We've discussed it on the beanie wall and I wrote about it in my comment. It's nice how they both admitted their past and realized they can have a new relation as adults. Growing up, it's called.
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10 Yuyuu, The Drama Queen
April 24, 2020 at 1:53 AM
Welp. Well, I didn't think much of this episode after I watched it, because not many significant things happened except the separation and the development of Jang-woo x Eun-sil's relationship.
So I thought of this as a sort of filler episode to lead us to the finale.
However:
After reading this recap, I really see the point about Eun-seop being rather passive in this relationship. Granted, it's understandable given his background, but now I'm also frustrated that at this point he's still slow to initiate significant action. It's definitely in line with his character, but it's a bit disappointing in terms of character development.
But without giving out any spoilers about the finale, I think in the end, there is a bit of an improvement on that front... so i'll leave my analysis about that for the last episode.
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11 frabbycrabsis loves KBS Drama Specials
April 24, 2020 at 3:19 AM
I shouldn't be here, I haven't watched the episode yet, la la la la laaaa!
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Eazal
April 24, 2020 at 5:56 AM
What are you waiting? Go watch it!!!
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frabbycrabsis loves KBS Drama Specials
April 24, 2020 at 6:51 AM
I'm tryingggg!
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12 ava
April 24, 2020 at 3:33 AM
Omo, Ive been waiting for this foreverrrrrr. Thanks for the recap. I feel like.... it was a lot. I feel like this could have been the last episode and I would be okay with it. It is not about love, they love each other, but it is about timing and happiness. If anything, one of the biggest topics in this drama is about timing. ES knew that the timing wasnt right yet. You can find love, but not happiness. And for them to be together, that happiness needs to be there.
I kinda disagree in one thing. I think that in this episode, ES took action, for the first time. When they went to her house, he explained to her (maybe because he read the whole book?), her aunt and mothers feelings/reasoning. This was a first for him. He is always the guy who support and listens. But not this time, he told her (what she could not see). So in this point, I was kinda surprised.
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skelly
April 24, 2020 at 11:32 AM
I kindof facepalmed when he did that... you finally open up and start talking, and it is to defend the people that have hurt and confused HW? There is a time for every sort of interaction, but right when you have been hurt is when you want your lover to say 'that horrible so-and-so' or 'I want to give them a piece of my mind' or even 'how could they do that to someone as wonderful as you' - the time for reasonable discourse, for seeing the other parties' point of view, is later when you have had a chance to calm down and lick your wounds a bit. This is a common relationship pitfall - getting logic when you need empathy - But ES taken action so seldom that this one mistake looms large.
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13 sal
April 24, 2020 at 3:45 AM
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14 sal
April 24, 2020 at 3:58 AM
To me I understand HW reaction as she feel lied to and it is in character as we already knows what she think about not being honest. It also kinda a sett back from how far she had come from when she came to the village. It is new information about her dad death that she need to understand. Also wonder why she have no stronger reaction to her dad abuse, but I think she have worked true that in high school since she knows after hearing that in the trial. She said in last week episode she already had that feeling something was not right seeing how her parent where around each other. Kids can sense whats going on even though they do not understand.
Also I think it was a big step for ES growth giving support to HW in talking about her feelings, and giving another side to to see it from!
I liked that HW did talk have a talk with ES before leaving. Sure they could have talked about being in contact with each other. But her mind is filled with her own feelings. ES did already knew she was going to leave as he already comment on that to her in an early episode and even writing that goodbye letter. To me they both knew there was a time limit as they started their relationship. But I am glad she did run up to him in the mountain as she did already miss him. she need to feel the empty space ES left in her life to fully understand what he means to her. I think ES reward for being who he is, is having her coming back to him with a fresh mind. :)
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15 laladaisical
April 24, 2020 at 6:08 AM
There is a disturbing cone of silence surrounding domestic abuse in this drama, which, I hope, is a narrative choice to reflect reality. However, these past episodes have been hard to watch because of this silence, this insistence that Myung-yeo must pay, not only for killing Hae-won's father, but for betraying trust.
I wish Myung-joo would shake her sister and tell Myung-yeo that she saved their lives. Even though it was accidental, even though she had to go to prison, they fact remains that they were running for their lives from a man intent on beating them to death. I want her to shake Myung-yeo really hard and tell her to confront dream brother-in-law with what he did, and how he betrayed them all. Tell her to stop blaming herself. Myung-yeo saved their lives.
With Hae-won, I can't believe she didn't know her father abused her mother. What disturbs me most is her lack of sympathy, hell, empathy, for her mother and for her aunt. She can't see beyond her own feelings, and 15 episodes in, it turns out that she refuses to do so.
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rue
April 24, 2020 at 6:57 AM
She did! It saddened me how both sisters were blaming themselves for being abused and/or nearly killed.
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sorrynotsorry
April 25, 2020 at 8:23 PM
"cone of silence surrounding domestic abuse" Yes, you relay in your comments what disturbed me so much about this episode. Because I'm cynical enough to think the writers kept everything vague as a way to get her back to Seoul. If they had a real conversation and hashed it out, she wouldn't be mad at the aunt who -as you say - saved her sister and possibly her own life. Mayby the book fleshed this out better but it was not well done. I don't even know if HW knew about the abuse though it is totally suspending reality that she didn't.
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16 CynKod1
April 24, 2020 at 6:09 AM
I felt the "break-up" chat in the bookstore was pretty bizarre. It was so cold and brief: "It's spring, I'm going, good luck with your bookshop." I just thought that given this relationship was apparently love, and seemed so significant to Hae-Won, it was very throwaway and cruel. I know ES could have asked her to stay, but wow, after that chat it seemed like her mind was made up. The face he made when he offered coffee and she said no - so gutted and resigned that she was going! HW made several comments throughout the eps that she wanted to stay / wanted him to ask her to stay so it seemed she was definitely contemplating that the relationship was for the long haul, which made that cold and quick break up all the more odd. I know she was going through some hard stuff, but after all her talk of ES "warming her" and being there for her at this crucial time, her leaving like that came across so dismissive of this important relationship. I don't know, it just left me feeling very sad, and a little confused.
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skelly
April 24, 2020 at 11:40 AM
I felt that HW was painted into a corner, at this point. She can't stand to stay at Walnut House, with her aunt, right now. She had no other place in town to stay - ES made no move to offer her any sort of safe haven. There's a million things he could have done, but he did nothing - so what is a girl to do? She can only instigate so far, she can't show up with her bags on his doorstep, although it might have crossed her mind. So she lays out her plan, and I can see how sterile the conversation is because there is nothing for her to object to, nothing for her to cling to--the lifelines, they were not thrown here--
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sorrynotsorry
April 25, 2020 at 8:26 PM
I feel the whole thing was contrived. The aunt actually did something in self-defense and somehow trying not to get murdered is less important than not telling HW about it? The whole thing didn't make sense, and during the conversation HW really didn't seem like she wasn angling for an invitation to stay.
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17 rue
April 24, 2020 at 6:36 AM
I understand why they kept it from her when it happened though. She was a high school kid and it might have been too much to bear. Lying about it or choosing to keep it from Hae-won might have been instinctive. "She is the innocent child in all of this and so we should protect her at all costs".
I do think they should have told adult Hae-won earlier than they did if only to mend the relationships that had been fractured by the secret.
I don't understand Aunt's decision to turn herself in. I know she kept saying she killed Hae-won's dad and while that's technically true, it was self defense and an accident at that. I truly believe that man would have killed both of them that day, so great was his rage. With that in mind, I didn't think she had anything to atone for. But that's just the me who has absolutely no sympathy for abusers dead or alive.
I was a bit taken aback by Hae-won's reaction to the news that her dad was abusive towards her mother. I would have expected some anger on her mother's behalf but I can see how she would feel the way she felt. Her dad was a loving father and a trashy husband. It would be easy to put him on a pedestal since he never hurt Hae-won. A little empathy would have been nice though.
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Ashes2Ashes
April 24, 2020 at 8:33 AM
I so feel you about HW's lack of reactions about her father's abuse." I know he wasn't the best,but he was my dad" seems incredibly cavalier.
I feel equally strongly about how ES's family ties hav just been left to the side. The show could hav had ES-HW actually talk about their complicted parents.
HW could have expressed her complicated feelings about her dad to ES before the whole revelation drama. ES could have confided about his thoughts on his birth family and where his head is at with regards to the whole family. This could hav really shown us the strengthening of their relationship and shown the viewers a more rounded view of these two. Gorgeous shots , silent stares , and knowing hugs are wonderful but it's a bit frustrating when it's at the cost of half done story lines .
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rue
April 24, 2020 at 9:09 AM
We definitely should have had more conversations in place os most of the stares. Maybe HW and ES are different but I honestly think relationships are nurtured when you talk. I mean how else do you get to know a person? If you haven't grown up in the same household with a person how do you know how they're feeling simply through observation? They were both coming from traumatic places that shaped who they were so delving into that as they grew from almost strangers to friends to lovers would have been a more organic way to develop their characters.
I wonder if the writer forgot about Eun-seob altogether in the last episodes. He had a story too. He had skeletons too and issues to work through too. The uncle flew in and flew out so quickly I have no idea what purpose he served other than to make ES look sad for an entire episode.
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18 lately
April 24, 2020 at 7:34 AM
This episode made me tear up time after time. I can't really point out what did it, but it had this hypnotic feel again after I felt a bit more distanced watching episode 13 and 14. The interpretation above about the show being about "turning your back on love" is illuminating for me, thank you @lindag latebloomer. I didn't even have the strength anymore to question why all the characters (except Jang Woo, luckily) made the worst decisions that seemed like a sure way to make themselves feel miserable (like the cold hearted breakup scene in the book store, for example). Like them, I too felt the weight of depression from learned helplessness.
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lately
April 24, 2020 at 7:46 AM
One small addition: I had to suspend my disbelief quite a bit to believe that Bo Yeong could find so much wisdom on such short notice. She matured quite quickly after that conversation on the bus.
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19 Ashes2Ashes
April 24, 2020 at 8:51 AM
Thanks for the wonderful recap and insightful comments as always @quirkycase.
I feel as resigned to the direction of this episode as ES seems to be about HW and his place in her life. It felt like the show gave us the highlight reel of all the events that we were expecting to happen - the confrontation between the aunt and the niece, the departure of the female lead, Shim sisters finally talking honestly about the incident that broke both of them.it was all as we were expecting but just fell flat of the depth and nuance that I had come to expect of the show. At this point, the show has seriously run out of time to give them the space they deserve, but it's to the credit of the actors that they still manage to infuse these moments with enough undercurrents to let the devoted viewers draw conclusions that feel true to us.
*This might be controversial but I felt that HW asking MY to stay as she is the right thing to do. MY may not have gone to a physical prison but I feel that giving up your dreams, the love of your life and a literal eye is enough penance to have accidentally killed an abuser in self defence. She doesn't need to suffer more for a society that is just gonna judge and gawk at this family anew if she goes public with it. HW and MJ are not going to heal by seeing their beloved aunt/sister behind bars. What she really needs is for HW to know the truth and for MJ to break free of her own guilt. MY was right when she said death of one is the death of all as far as this family is concerned. None of them talk to each other and they all seem to be competing to sacrifice themselves for the greater god but these women are all tangled in together in their love for each other and healing for them would really be being finally looking at each other with shades off and learn to accept that sometimes the best penance you can do is live your life the best way you can.
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Ashes2Ashes
April 24, 2020 at 9:04 AM
Oh and as always,JW and Hwi appreciation post. From the last few episodes, these two balls of sunshine seem to be from another drama but let's not get tangled in that for now.
*JW - ES ship is sailing and I love that the whole town seems to be full of shippers. JW my dude, telling your crush about your mother's expectations on timeline of your marriage and future children is certainly the smart way to go about it. Oh boy, it's good that you're so bumblingly cute and ES seems more than capable of handling any possible interference from your off-screen omoni.
*Hwi, sweetie, instead of focusing on the boy who doesn't seem to be making a move ,how about you make friends with this crazy JI girl? you certainly have the same taste in boys and you heard her,she's leaving soon,why not take over the school Jjang post from her . If your peers haven't seen your value yet, they don't deserve your awesomeness.
And let's face it, most people are probably terrified of you anyway.Hyunji and you can have your final year of glory in HS and leave the town in style. 😉
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ava
April 24, 2020 at 11:17 AM
I also had a feeling that this episode was a bit flat. But I think it is because the last.. 3 episodes (?) were so emotional, so heavy, that I am glad that this was not another heavy episode, but a flat one. It was like it was back to normal pace of the show. (sorry, english is not my first language)
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20 Emperor Titus
April 24, 2020 at 9:32 AM
I am not quite sure if I should leave a comment in a Ep. 15 recap, since we probably have watche Ep. 16 as well, and I probably have a final judgement. But I do remember when I was watching Ep. 15, I was pretty sure Hae-won is not leaving for good. She just need to calm down from such traumatic truth of her family. I am not so sure though, about why Eun-seob let her leave, just because he has accept the fact that she will leave in the spring, just as she did every year, and he just don't want to be block her way to live her live? According to some of his private entry of that blog, he is more as an observer of other people's live more than someone actively getting into other's live?
Honestly, I am still not sure about his motivation. I am pretty sure I have to watch the last 2 episodes again to make sure.
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earthna
April 24, 2020 at 10:42 AM
I mean the episode is calles Until We Meet Again so I knew they will see each other again someday, when they got everything all sorted out.
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21 taekkielove
April 24, 2020 at 11:19 AM
This was the first episode in the entire drama that I felt was a tad bit disappointing. But, I think that's what this show is about. People and relationships disappoint, no matter how much effort or love there is. These people are all flawed and have baggage and it's so difficult to work through everything in one winter. So, that way, it's real. But, heart-broken Eun-seob🙁🙁 My heart breaks for the both of them :(
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22 WannaBeMyMy
April 28, 2020 at 1:37 AM
Thanks for the recap.
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23 Feminist Asian Dad
February 21, 2021 at 4:59 AM
I just finished the series. LOOK AWAY; HERE THERE BE SPOILERS.
So much of this series was so very good. It hit all the right notes for almost 15 full episodes. But beginning when HW breaks up with ES, the show lost me. Nobody these days who experiences the things HW and ES have simply assumes it's over because one of them has to move away. I mean, does Face Time not exist in this show's universe? The fact that HW didn't have a cell phone for most of the series was a clever way to create more tension. But once she gets it back, the story should reflect modern technology. I mean, the series was careful throughout to show cell phones that matched the year of the events taking place.
The breakup felt contrived, like it was the thing you're supposed to do before the finale of a romantic K-drama. The series had marched to its own beat for the entire time, subverting expectations and especially gender stereotypes. Then it becomes like every other K-drama in its closing stages. In any story, you have to nail the conclusion - "stick the landing," to use a gymnastics metaphor. And this series didn't. It's still very good. But it was almost great.
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24 Podzim
June 17, 2021 at 3:42 PM
Thanks for recap, Quirkycase. In response to this:
“ I know the focus of the story has been on Hae-won and Myung-yeo with Myung-joo acting as a catalyst, but I wish they would give us more insight into her behavior, particularly when it comes to Hae-won. I still don’t get why Myung-joo was so harsh and wouldn’t accept Hae-won’s letters back then. We can guess she was trying to distance herself from Hae-won so the negative impact of having a “criminal” parent would be less, but that’s merely speculation. Even if that’s the case, it doesn’t make much sense for her to entirely cut her daughter out without any explanation.”
I found Myung-Joo very cold in the early stages. I don’t think the criminal parent perception thing was the key reason, but prob a factor. Understanding now what she went through - I get why she distanced herself. How do you tell your child about what happened without context? A rational but empathetic conversation as a supportive parent is almost impossible without triggering ones own memories of the psychological & physical abuse, lack of self-worth, & the emotional response that comes with recalling all that. It would be incredibly distressing, & much harder given she really was alone as a parent. Her mother was probably unaware, & sister quite matter of fact & coping with her own issues to be the emotional support Myung-Joo needed herself to be an effective, connected parent..
Domestic violence does become a buzzword in media, film & TV, but I think the show was quite realistic about the characterisations. It was probably a very difficult choice to portray this without getting in too deep, for a Korean TV show :)
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