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[2017 Year in Review] Turning back with a gluttonous sociopath

By @TurtuallySarcastic

Drama Slump—fortunately, that will not be the theme of my review today. You cannot really suffer a Drama Slump if you only have time to watch about five K-dramas a year from beginning to end, not including all the cheating through Dramabeans recaps. No matter how fond I am of K-dramas, job-hunting is a full-time occupation that demands but does not reward overtime.

For me, K-dramas and unemployment are two sides of the same coin. Both came into my life in the fall of 2015, right after I graduated from university. I stumbled on Dramabeans in 2016, and never stopped lurking since. I worked temp jobs once in a blue moon and believed that experience and self-confidence would grow with time, and that nonstop applying would eventually land me my dream job. I could temporarily do with fewer K-dramas for this greater good. However, the Drama Slump was a wakeup call that I was merely carving my own path towards self destruction, rather than making sure everything would magically work out.

Drama Slump took place this fall, around the time that I finally started watching Chief Kim. I came for Namgoong Min and stayed for the laughs, the story, and my new crushes Junho, Dongha, and Dimples. Junho, especially, was amazing as antagonist Seo Yul. His character went evil to the point of no return. At least, that’s what he thought until Chief Kim matter-of-factly told him to simply turn back and not let his fears stop him from doing so. Our favorite gluttonous sociopath was not the only one left speechless after that scene.

During my last temp job in early 2017 (ironically around the time that Chief Kim originally aired), I came to the painful realization that I had no idea what I wanted to do for a living, and how I would get there once I did know. I immediately put job searching on hiatus to get my groove back, and slowly but surely regained my joy of living and a professional purpose. Getting there, on the other hand, was still a mystery. Until Chief Kim shared his wisdom.

Glutton and I both knew our fears, but we were too afraid to face them, which is why we both kept walking the wrong path, even though we knew it was the wrong one. But it takes courage to admit this to yourself and then act on it. Our glutton did turn back eventually, and the fact that it took him a while to get there through redemption and hard work, rather than with the flick of a wrist, made his happy ending even more deserved and realistic. All because of Chief Kim (though glutton will forever deny this).

Which brings me to another thing we had in common: loneliness. Glutton started out solo and trusted no one, until Chief Kim and the other good guys reached out to him. If Glutton could accept support from his (fr)enemy, then I could do the same with my loved ones. I passed the time during my job search hiatus with friends and relatives who needed company or help in any way. Their love and gratitude encouraged me to finally open up about my unemployment unhappiness. Unsurprisingly, more people than I expected turned out to be very understanding and supportive, or came around as soon as some prejudices were dealt with. Their priority was whether or not I was doing my part in our relationship, rather than whether or not I had a job.

My happy ending is not here yet, but I am finally ready to start my own redemption arc: mid-January I will start classes to obtain another degree. It was a suggestion that I ignored at first, because why volunteer to spend a whole semester unemployed, without a steady income? Despite that fear, I realized that I would not get my happy ending with a stable job if I was not willing to increase my professional skills and self-confidence first. Besides, I already consider the classroom a nice change of scenery, rather than a financial setback.

In the end it took one scene in one K-drama to not only summarize my year, but also change my life for the better. Employed or not, we all have a life to live to the fullest, loved ones to cherish, and passions to pursue. Chief Kim was the last person I expected to rekindle my hope and motivation so casually, and yet he even managed to get through to someone who was once his enemy. If only we all could have a Chief Kim in our lives, or aspire to be a Chief Kim to every Seo Yul we come across. All it takes is a couple of chocolate bars.

 
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Chief Kim was one of the best for me. This and Defendant.
However it was severely under-rated here cause everybody wants romance 😑😑

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I admit that Chief Kim did not catch my interest at first, because it lacked romance. However, I gave in because many Beanies kept praising it, and they still do now. I guess Many Beanies will give this one a (second) chance if we just keep praising :)

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This is a very powerful and moving post, thank you. I had tears in my eyes, which doesn't happen often, since I can identify with much of what you said. I reached my lowest point this year, and like you I have made a decision: I want redemption too. To think that Chief Kim brought hope and motivation to so many people (me included), not only our favourite Gluttonous Sociopath. ❤️️🍫🍫

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Thank you for your moving comment, I am glad that I could somehow voice some of your sentiments as well. You deserve redemption. And you will have redemption. :)

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Thank you for highlighting the Food Psycho! Yul's arc is one of the most satisfying ones this year. The whole length of the show he kept doing bad things and he'd have these moments where even he wonders why he's crossing certain lines. But he crosses them anyway, and our hope dies a little bit more that he'll ever turn out to be good. But then near the end he chose to be good--which is much more fulfilling than finding out he was good all along.

PS I'm glad you had family and friends to support you during your slump. I hope your 2018 is better. :)

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"He is not bad, he is just undercover..." - Beanies in Hilarious Denial on the Episode Recaps.
Yul is the first "villain" ever to be more than just an obstacle to the hero in my eyes. Here is to more of them!
Thank you, I count Beanies among the mentioned friends for this reason. I wish you an Applebutt 2018 ;)

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Lol, I remember that!! First we had wild theories that he was undercover, then we began to despair that he chose to be a bad boy... so imagine the party we threw by the end. :D

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Gosh this show and all the baby steps to redemption. I remember there’s a scene when Dongha wanted to be strong for his mom... and I’m like “so you do want to be a decent guy after all” :’)

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Very short comment: I LOVED Chief Kim. I will watch it again. When he almost died and showed his vulnerability, I almost died and cried a lot with him.
Wonderful drama. Realistic in many ways.
And since I will start job hunting again in January, I think it is necessary for me to re-watch it as well.
I don't need to come back to school anymore, I even finish my master this year, but I have to learn InDesing in order to find a specific job I like.
So... @turtuallysarcastic, I am with you in trying to live to the fullest, cherish my loved ones even if they are so far away, and pursue a new passion: in my case, work.
Beanies: fighting!!!

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If you're doing visual design, InDesign is a good one - but if you're looking at anything like prototyping or front-end comps, I'd suggest you take a look at Sketch/Invision first. InDesign's expensive and depending on what you want to do, there are ways to pick up similar skills without forking out for Adobe.

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I appreciate the tip. I know InDesign is expensive, but I already applied for a job where I will need it and I am being optimistic that they will call me and I will have to learn it at any cost (of course, free tutorials to start won't do wrong), but I didn't know anything about sketch invision, so even more, thank you... I will also take a look at it😉
Ohhhh I will become rich muah muah ja ja 😂😂😂

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What type of jobs are you applying for?

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I studied linguistics in my bachelor and I did a master in cultural heritage in Germany, where I live now. I am applying to work in communications in a big international company. They do tons of publications both printed and digital, so that is why I need to learn indesign.

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Great post. Thanks for this. Chief Kim was certainly a favorite for me this year.

May you have a wonderful 2018! Wishing you all the best in your academic, personal and professional endeavors.

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I started Chief Kim because of all the good reviews. I loved the humour, the life lessons and the warmth. And discovered the gem that is Junho. I wanted to strangle him many times, but in the end, I fell for his character and redemption. Junho then led me to Just Between Lovers. Enough said! I feel embarrassed promoting JBL every where.

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I was contemplating whether to read this post or not because I hadn't watched chief kim and wanted to avoid getting spoiled, if any. But, then I thought I probably wouldn't watch it anyway, but now that I have read your post, I feel compelled to watch it.

I became a kdrama addict and stumbled upon dramabeans during my unemployment period too. But, now that I am here, I am not sure if this is what I want to do and am still searching for something that I would like to do. Anyway, thank you for this post and hope you achieve everything you aspire to be in 2018! :)

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Ahhh, I love Glutton. You should watch Junho in Just between lovers, he is great.
I wish you good luck in finding the right job for you.

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I am fairly new to the world of Kdrama (I only began watching in August this year) but now I'm obsessed with everything Kdrama and even listen to all the ost (they're very good)! However, I can't seem to watch anything beyond the ones with a heavy dose of romance, I'm currently watching Beautiful Gong Shim and wanting to watch more of Namgoong Min's work I stumbled upon Chief Kim. I have been in two minds about watching it because of its non existent romance track but this post definitely encouraged me to give it a shot.

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Most of Kdrama watchers started with rom-com's and we venture into other genres as we realise we're geeting bored with similar stories. I've been watching Kdramas since 2013 but yet to explore OCN (crime/thriller) dramas, get a bit wary that I might have bad dreams.

Chief Kim comes under comedy genre, you can comfortably watch it.

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I want to watch it because I am in love with all the funny antics that Namgoong Min has been up to in Beautiful Gong Shim. There are times when i am literally laughing out loud!

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I loved Beautiful Gong Shim!!

If you want to try something different with Namgoong Min, I liked The Girl Who Sees Smells. It has romance, but NM plays the villain (and possibly the scariest villain I've seen, though I avoid crime/thrillers).

And actually, Chief Kim has a bit of romance... but I won't spoil it for you. 😏

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I enjoyed the funny bits way more than the romance even though that was really cute. I'll pass "the Girl... for now and watch Chief Kim. I need more of Namgoong. :)

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Jun-Ho seems lke he's been eating non-stop from Chief Kim to Just Between Lovers.

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Aww..was what I first thought after reading your last paragraph. I agree we all should live life to its fullest. Sometimes it's easier said than done and we end up taking things for granted. I wish you luck job hunting in 2018! Thank you for this!

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Thanks for writing this - it makes me wonder if I too should just move out of my field altogether. Get a degree in something else. My biggest fear is that I'll lose interest/become unmotivated in any other field as well, and so I might as well stick to what I currently doing.
[Which is working 12-14 hour days, 6 days a week and earning peanuts, but the potential payoff in the long run is huge.]

Either way, I was very happy to read that i) there are so many people as lost as I am and ii) they find their way/figure out how to move forward.

Chief Kim was an amazing drama. I watched till about Episode 15 (then real life got in the way), and am now motivated to finish it.

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Oh? What do you do?

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Lawyer. Or advocate, in my jurisdiction. Running around the Courts all day, and preparing for the next day all evening/into the night. It's common practice for juniors to start on a very low pay, and work their way up.

[Just curious now, could I ask? Similar situation?]

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Insurance.

Mad Dog episode 1 was a funny clash of my academic major and my current profession. Haha.

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Sounds like we are in a similar spot - I gave myself a deadline to stick with what I'm currently doing until next July... we'll see.

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Hahahaha *high fives* I'm on a similar deadline - tentatively till June.

Just out of curiosity, what do you do?

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Postgrad, professional procrastinator, wannabee professor of history. Getting into academia is really tough, but once you leave you can't get back in easily... that's why I keep hesitating to switch to something else.

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Oh! That's quite cool!
And also, I've done my postgrad (masters) as well and it is truly a procastinator's hell. I'd love to study even further but I think I'd drown in self-loathing due to all the procrastination.

Good luck! I hope that, come July, you'll have a clearer idea. :)

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Published on the first try, yay! :D Thank You Dramabeans Staff for publishing my 2017 sob story. I thought the content would be too raw to publish, but it seems like many Beanies faced similar struggles, so I am glad that I could offer some support. :)  Beanies, Thank you all for reading and commenting. Your supporting words are really heartwarming and I wish you all the best for 2018 as well. (Re)Watch Chief Kim! ;)

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I have rambled on my comment and forgot to say : I hope everything will come into place for you 💕 drama beans also helped me to enjoy my hobby as well as to realise that we all struggle through life and found enjoyment and sometimes reminders from dramas. You reminded me I have to push through and that i would be able to graduate next year. I've been so scared and this post solidifies all the love that has been showered to me. so thank you for that ❤️

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First things first, thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. This was such an insightful and moving post and I'm so very glad that Chief Kim helped you choose the path you wanted to take. There are always going to be fears and obstacles, but we cannot let that stop us. I'm very glad you were able to take what you needed from the drama and apply it yourself.

Second things second, I really wish we had favourite/like buttons so that that I could shower this post with love, but as things stand, I'll settle for bookmarking this page, so that whenever I need a push through, I can come here and feel motivated. :)

All the best for 2018 and your new degree! I wish you all the success and more. <3 <3

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Your comment beats any love shower, and I am honored to be that little push through! :)

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This piece is so beautifully written, I think I have tears in my eyes 😭
I always have this drama close to my heart, if it's not obvious yet. Other than falling into new crushes like Junho and the rest of CK casts (oh these talented people!) , the drama itself were like an oasis in the middle of everything that was going on. The drama felt so fresh and defied whatever expectations I have of it (I always thought it'll somehow disappoint me like so many dramas did. it didn't. Everyone thought he's undercover right? :')) . I love Glutton, very. much. He was a complex character, a villain that doesn't exactly explain why he was that way but we understood him little by little though his actions. That between all those evil deeds were some regrets seeping though. Feelings of wanting to spend some more time with his crush or to fully enjoy his meal. His ride to finally found someone of his spectrum, whom he can play with without being afraid of harming them. Because someone caught up with his pace while also reminding him to slow down. it was Chief Kim. and Ha Kyung.
You said everything I want to say about this lovely drama, and I'm throwing all my love to you. I want to make a whole essay about this drama, but I'm not goo at that so I want to thank you for bringing this gem with this beautiful writing. because this drama sure affected me a lot as well in many different ways. both in drama land and real life ❤️

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This was so well written and your story is very compelling. You'll get there! Hwaiting! :) <3

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So much love for Chief Kim! I am over the moon.

@turtuallysarcastic unnie, I wish all the best in 2018! Just don't lose hope and keep fighting! Better days will surely come.❤

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