Think I’m going to start a new thing for myself. Let’s see how consistent these stream of consciousness reflections will be!
K-Quote of the Day:
“When the day breaks…
I hear the clip-clop…of people’s footsteps.
Hearing that sound from underneath my covers…makes me feel so lonely.
You couldn’t even imagine.
The feeling that I’m the only one not rolling forward.
So, sometimes… I sit outside near the door, early in the morning.
Because I want to feel as if I’m rolling forward with them, too.”
-Jung Hee, My Ajusshi
.
.
.
Am I the only one here?
I don’t know if it’s a byproduct of the rat’s race global society we live in, but I’ve developed a fear of getting stuck. Perhaps it has to do with one of the darkest times of my life, where depression told me that laziness was no longer a choice, it was an enforced state of being. When that happens, when you’re direction-less, listless, without purpose—but with a deep want for purpose, it’s like a battle within yourself. You feel dead, but you feel uncomfortable. That discomfort is the light. It’s the sign that you’re not okay with the depths you’ve fallen into, that as bleak as things may seem on the surface of your own heart, the candle of hope is still burning deep inside you. It just needs to be tended to.
And although we can make much social commentary on the ills of a hyper productive society that expects too much [ironically, or maybe fittingly, coupled with a global epidemic of procrastination], the fact remains that more often than not, we will all arrive at a time when we ask, “Am I the only one here?”
And I think the answer is, yes, you are for the moment, because you own this journey, and this journey is yours for the making and also no, you’re not the only one here because others have been here in the past, and others are here now, and still others will pass by here in the future and that brings a sense of togetherness that is unparalleled.
Yes, people are rolling forward, Jung Hee. But if you turned around and saw that there are people who’re stuck just like you are, perhaps your wait won’t feel so lonely anymore. And then one day, we’ll clip-clop our way forward too.
At times I think if the urge for productivity is a very capitalist ideology. We are told that our lives cannot be at peace if we are not churning our energy in sth, but also weirdly one thinks this is true. It is applicable to me who also thinks she has stopped in a world that keeps on moving and I have the urge to move with them too.
100%! I’ve heard that comparison a lot, and I’m inclined to agree that it is very capitalistic. But I guess what can define that urge for productivity is the intention and purpose behind it. Is it the pursuit of money? Is it that we think happiness comes from productivity? Is it running away from something that makes us pour ourselves and fret over using every single minute? So many ways to think about it…
For some reason my post has disappeared 🙁 Just re-posting below for timestamp purposes.
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Think I’m going to start a new thing for myself. Let’s see how consistent these stream of consciousness reflections will be!
K-Quote of the Day:
“When the day breaks…
I hear the clip-clop…of people’s footsteps.
Hearing that sound from underneath my covers…makes me feel so lonely.
You couldn’t even imagine.
The feeling that I’m the only one not rolling forward.
So, sometimes… I sit outside near the door, early in the morning.
Because I want to feel as if I’m rolling forward with them, too.”
-Jung Hee, My Ajusshi
.
.
. Am I the only one here?
I don’t know if it’s a byproduct of the rat’s race global society we live in, but I’ve developed a fear of getting stuck. Perhaps it has to do with one of the darkest times of my life, where depression told me that laziness was no longer a choice, it was an enforced state of being. When that happens, when you’re direction-less, listless, without purpose—but with a deep want for purpose, it’s like a battle within yourself. You feel dead, but you feel uncomfortable. That discomfort is the light. It’s the sign that you’re not okay with the depths you’ve fallen into, that as bleak as things may seem on the surface of your own heart, the candle of hope is still burning deep inside you. It just needs to be tended to.
And although we can make much social commentary on the ills of a hyper productive society that expects too much [ironically, or maybe fittingly, coupled with a global epidemic of procrastination], the fact remains that more often than not, we will all arrive at a time when we ask, “Am I the only one here?”
And I think the answer is, yes, you are for the moment, because you own this journey, and this journey is yours for the making and also no, you’re not the only one here because others have been here in the past, and others are here now, and still others will pass by here in the future and that brings a sense of togetherness that is unparalleled.
Yes, people are rolling forward, Jung Hee. But if you turned around and saw that there are people who’re stuck just like you are, perhaps your wait won’t feel so lonely anymore. And then one day, we’ll clip-clop our way forward too.
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meltingfrost
January 27, 2020 at 9:46 PM
Think I’m going to start a new thing for myself. Let’s see how consistent these stream of consciousness reflections will be!
K-Quote of the Day:
“When the day breaks…
I hear the clip-clop…of people’s footsteps.
Hearing that sound from underneath my covers…makes me feel so lonely.
You couldn’t even imagine.
The feeling that I’m the only one not rolling forward.
So, sometimes… I sit outside near the door, early in the morning.
Because I want to feel as if I’m rolling forward with them, too.”
-Jung Hee, My Ajusshi
.
.
.
Am I the only one here?
I don’t know if it’s a byproduct of the rat’s race global society we live in, but I’ve developed a fear of getting stuck. Perhaps it has to do with one of the darkest times of my life, where depression told me that laziness was no longer a choice, it was an enforced state of being. When that happens, when you’re direction-less, listless, without purpose—but with a deep want for purpose, it’s like a battle within yourself. You feel dead, but you feel uncomfortable. That discomfort is the light. It’s the sign that you’re not okay with the depths you’ve fallen into, that as bleak as things may seem on the surface of your own heart, the candle of hope is still burning deep inside you. It just needs to be tended to.
And although we can make much social commentary on the ills of a hyper productive society that expects too much [ironically, or maybe fittingly, coupled with a global epidemic of procrastination], the fact remains that more often than not, we will all arrive at a time when we ask, “Am I the only one here?”
And I think the answer is, yes, you are for the moment, because you own this journey, and this journey is yours for the making and also no, you’re not the only one here because others have been here in the past, and others are here now, and still others will pass by here in the future and that brings a sense of togetherness that is unparalleled.
Yes, people are rolling forward, Jung Hee. But if you turned around and saw that there are people who’re stuck just like you are, perhaps your wait won’t feel so lonely anymore. And then one day, we’ll clip-clop our way forward too.
meltingfrost
January 27, 2020 at 9:53 PM
Aw, I wish I could format this post so that all my italics and line breaks would stay.
wapz
January 28, 2020 at 3:10 AM
You can see html formatting for that.
meltingfrost
January 28, 2020 at 12:23 PM
where’s that option? I see there’s formatting for comments on the general blog posts, but no formatting options for the fan wall?
wapz
January 28, 2020 at 12:29 PM
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wapz
January 28, 2020 at 12:30 PM
You will need to use tags. This link will explain how that works here.
https://www.w3schools.com/html/html_formatting.asp
meltingfrost
January 28, 2020 at 12:53 PM
oooh gotcha thanks! i’ll try it out
wapz
January 28, 2020 at 3:10 AM
At times I think if the urge for productivity is a very capitalist ideology. We are told that our lives cannot be at peace if we are not churning our energy in sth, but also weirdly one thinks this is true. It is applicable to me who also thinks she has stopped in a world that keeps on moving and I have the urge to move with them too.
meltingfrost
January 28, 2020 at 12:26 PM
100%! I’ve heard that comparison a lot, and I’m inclined to agree that it is very capitalistic. But I guess what can define that urge for productivity is the intention and purpose behind it. Is it the pursuit of money? Is it that we think happiness comes from productivity? Is it running away from something that makes us pour ourselves and fret over using every single minute? So many ways to think about it…
ship-happens
January 28, 2020 at 3:24 PM
Thank you for sharing this~! It was lovely to read.
meltingfrost
January 28, 2020 at 7:11 PM
Thank you for reading <3
meltingfrost
January 28, 2020 at 7:14 PM
For some reason my post has disappeared 🙁 Just re-posting below for timestamp purposes.
——————————————————————————————–
Think I’m going to start a new thing for myself. Let’s see how consistent these stream of consciousness reflections will be!
K-Quote of the Day:
Because I want to feel as if I’m rolling forward with them, too.”
-Jung Hee, My Ajusshi
.
.
.
Am I the only one here?
I don’t know if it’s a byproduct of the rat’s race global society we live in, but I’ve developed a fear of getting stuck. Perhaps it has to do with one of the darkest times of my life, where depression told me that laziness was no longer a choice, it was an enforced state of being. When that happens, when you’re direction-less, listless, without purpose—but with a deep want for purpose, it’s like a battle within yourself. You feel dead, but you feel uncomfortable. That discomfort is the light. It’s the sign that you’re not okay with the depths you’ve fallen into, that as bleak as things may seem on the surface of your own heart, the candle of hope is still burning deep inside you. It just needs to be tended to.
And although we can make much social commentary on the ills of a hyper productive society that expects too much [ironically, or maybe fittingly, coupled with a global epidemic of procrastination], the fact remains that more often than not, we will all arrive at a time when we ask, “Am I the only one here?”
And I think the answer is, yes, you are for the moment, because you own this journey, and this journey is yours for the making and also no, you’re not the only one here because others have been here in the past, and others are here now, and still others will pass by here in the future and that brings a sense of togetherness that is unparalleled.
Yes, people are rolling forward, Jung Hee. But if you turned around and saw that there are people who’re stuck just like you are, perhaps your wait won’t feel so lonely anymore. And then one day, we’ll clip-clop our way forward too.