Trying something new … writing a personal message to someone. — Hi, @kodra, not sure if this works … addressing a personal message to you. Well, personal becomes public, I suppose. Also, it is more of a reflection on where I am at with K-Drama, I guess, so others may read that too.
How is your life, @kodra? Reality has been biting me hard these past several weeks. I guess it was foreseeable, just that I ignored the signs. My life feels like climbing a steep mountain, with several paths to take and strong gusts attempting to blast me off the mountain, at every single step. I can foresee that this will be my reality for about a year … and it makes me fearful.
I used to console myself with the interesting novelty world of K-Drama, but after « My Dearest » pretty much everything has paled in this regard. The depth of emotions in that sageuk was utterly entrancing. And it made me think about precisely this : what is feeling, what is emotion in this world — and in my world ? I don’t have the time or the inclination now to read a lot on the Dramabeans site, although there are always comments which are interesting to me ; it takes a lot of time, and I don’t feel good about dedicating that time leisurely to this when I ought to start solving another piled-up crisis in my life looming on the horizon …
Also, I am noticing that I am becoming more and more my true Self and that my most fundamental beliefs are finding their rightful place. In the course of which I picked up again on this beautiful conversation between Deepak Chopra and Swami Sarvapriyananda from July 6, 2018 at the Rubin Museum of Art in New York City. I know and understand a fair amount about the « Hard Problem of Consciousness » Chopra is referring to, and his introduction to the reality of the Universe is priceless, short, precise, to the point. The scientific knowledge is exactly as he says. Swami Sarvapriyananda has been a favourite teacher for me for a while, from his talks and presentations. Have a look if this is of interest to you: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ejEGp9OvWRc&t=15s.
In the context of K-Drama, I am also picking up again a lot from Daniel Tudor’s book Korea—The Impossible Country ; in particular the chapters on the cultural codes, so chapters 7 to 12:
Jeong, The «Invisible Hug» ; Competition ; Chemyon — or Face ; Han and Heung — The Deep Sadness and Pure Joy in the Korean Mind ; From Clan to Nuclear Family ; Neophilia.
I am realising that our world of matter has its particular cultural expressions, which often are not accessible to one another, unless very well explained. I have seen people commenting on trope this and trope that in K-Dramaland, but I am wondering if this is not just another way of portraying the world of matter, reassuring us that everything is as we are expecting in our (limited) awareness.
That last thought is a bit fuzzy, I guess … but I a waning now, as the next task on my list is calling …
Anyhow, let me know how you’re doing, if you find the time. Cheerio.
It is a shame there is no option to do direct messages to individual beanies. I have done it by doing a reply to myself on one of my busy older posts and tagging the beanie there so it’s unlikely anyone else would see it is passing.
I hope that things are more settled for you now. The turn of the year or a significant birthday often leads to deeper reflections on how we are using our time and what we want from life.
@reply1988, Motherbean, thank you so much for checking. An online community is a somewhat strange unit, as it has no actual place for oneself to fall back onto. One meets wonderful and interesting people, but it is anonymous, so there is a cap on the closeness to be built and the possibility to further the acquaintance. I am in the process of reinventing myself. I am doing better. I am not out of the woods by a long way. I am so very busy now with doing things anew and different from before, so mulling over and sharing my musings with others on Korean dramas has very little spacetime in my life at the moment. I get pulled back into a way of how I do not want to be any longer. Yesterday was an exception that I went to the Dramabeans site and read through all the comments on EP 07 to 10 and pulled myself into commenting. I’ll see if I will be able to pick up that interest again with more dedication or not. The Korean representation of life and existence both historic and contemporary in their dramas is both intriguing and heart-wrenching for an emotional-intellectual person like myself. Does it inform my inner awareness in a healthy way or not? That is the question I am asking myself. — Sorry this is a long and probably deeper response to your warm and precise-short caring.
I have no issues with you choosing to share as much or little of your transition. There are times in our life when we benefit from taking time to pause and assess and it’s up to us where we share those reflections.
It is hard to reinvent ourselves and so it important to avoid those elements that can be a distraction from the process or are part of the lifestyle we want to leave behind. I hope you find the balance you need and if sharing ideas with a random online avatar who shares an interest helps I am happy to share this part of your journey for as long as we are both on the site.
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angelshadows50
December 5, 2023 at 9:45 AM
Trying something new … writing a personal message to someone. — Hi, @kodra, not sure if this works … addressing a personal message to you. Well, personal becomes public, I suppose. Also, it is more of a reflection on where I am at with K-Drama, I guess, so others may read that too.
How is your life, @kodra? Reality has been biting me hard these past several weeks. I guess it was foreseeable, just that I ignored the signs. My life feels like climbing a steep mountain, with several paths to take and strong gusts attempting to blast me off the mountain, at every single step. I can foresee that this will be my reality for about a year … and it makes me fearful.
I used to console myself with the interesting novelty world of K-Drama, but after « My Dearest » pretty much everything has paled in this regard. The depth of emotions in that sageuk was utterly entrancing. And it made me think about precisely this : what is feeling, what is emotion in this world — and in my world ? I don’t have the time or the inclination now to read a lot on the Dramabeans site, although there are always comments which are interesting to me ; it takes a lot of time, and I don’t feel good about dedicating that time leisurely to this when I ought to start solving another piled-up crisis in my life looming on the horizon …
Also, I am noticing that I am becoming more and more my true Self and that my most fundamental beliefs are finding their rightful place. In the course of which I picked up again on this beautiful conversation between Deepak Chopra and Swami Sarvapriyananda from July 6, 2018 at the Rubin Museum of Art in New York City. I know and understand a fair amount about the « Hard Problem of Consciousness » Chopra is referring to, and his introduction to the reality of the Universe is priceless, short, precise, to the point. The scientific knowledge is exactly as he says. Swami Sarvapriyananda has been a favourite teacher for me for a while, from his talks and presentations. Have a look if this is of interest to you: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ejEGp9OvWRc&t=15s.
In the context of K-Drama, I am also picking up again a lot from Daniel Tudor’s book Korea—The Impossible Country ; in particular the chapters on the cultural codes, so chapters 7 to 12:
Jeong, The «Invisible Hug» ; Competition ; Chemyon — or Face ; Han and Heung — The Deep Sadness and Pure Joy in the Korean Mind ; From Clan to Nuclear Family ; Neophilia.
I am realising that our world of matter has its particular cultural expressions, which often are not accessible to one another, unless very well explained. I have seen people commenting on trope this and trope that in K-Dramaland, but I am wondering if this is not just another way of portraying the world of matter, reassuring us that everything is as we are expecting in our (limited) awareness.
That last thought is a bit fuzzy, I guess … but I a waning now, as the next task on my list is calling …
Anyhow, let me know how you’re doing, if you find the time. Cheerio.
Reply1988 -❣️Mother Bean❣️
February 16, 2024 at 5:57 PM
It is a shame there is no option to do direct messages to individual beanies. I have done it by doing a reply to myself on one of my busy older posts and tagging the beanie there so it’s unlikely anyone else would see it is passing.
I hope that things are more settled for you now. The turn of the year or a significant birthday often leads to deeper reflections on how we are using our time and what we want from life.
Reply1988 -❣️Mother Bean❣️
February 16, 2024 at 5:59 PM
Sorry, I meant to say I saw Kodra’s message to you in the weecap and I came here to check if you were ok because of what they said.
angelshadows50
February 17, 2024 at 12:52 AM
@reply1988, Motherbean, thank you so much for checking. An online community is a somewhat strange unit, as it has no actual place for oneself to fall back onto. One meets wonderful and interesting people, but it is anonymous, so there is a cap on the closeness to be built and the possibility to further the acquaintance. I am in the process of reinventing myself. I am doing better. I am not out of the woods by a long way. I am so very busy now with doing things anew and different from before, so mulling over and sharing my musings with others on Korean dramas has very little spacetime in my life at the moment. I get pulled back into a way of how I do not want to be any longer. Yesterday was an exception that I went to the Dramabeans site and read through all the comments on EP 07 to 10 and pulled myself into commenting. I’ll see if I will be able to pick up that interest again with more dedication or not. The Korean representation of life and existence both historic and contemporary in their dramas is both intriguing and heart-wrenching for an emotional-intellectual person like myself. Does it inform my inner awareness in a healthy way or not? That is the question I am asking myself. — Sorry this is a long and probably deeper response to your warm and precise-short caring.
Reply1988 -❣️Mother Bean❣️
February 17, 2024 at 1:07 AM
I have no issues with you choosing to share as much or little of your transition. There are times in our life when we benefit from taking time to pause and assess and it’s up to us where we share those reflections.
It is hard to reinvent ourselves and so it important to avoid those elements that can be a distraction from the process or are part of the lifestyle we want to leave behind. I hope you find the balance you need and if sharing ideas with a random online avatar who shares an interest helps I am happy to share this part of your journey for as long as we are both on the site.