[2017 Year in Review] A year of discovery
by Guest Beanie
Rescue Me
By @elric
When 2017 arrived, I was determined to make something out of it. Lose weight. Work better. Save more. Read more. Predictable at most, but just like the rest of us, I wanted some sort of change in my life, even if it meant embarrassingly not following through in the long run. As the first few months of the new year went by, I saw myself having more of everything that I did not want. I was constantly given more responsibilities at work. An extra few pounds in some places. And an extravagant spending habit. Suffice to say, I was not happy with my life and was constantly thinking about how to improve it while feeling miserable that I didn’t have the motivation do it.
It was then that I saw myself turning to Korean entertainment to make me feel a little better. The funny thing was, Korean dramas were not new to me, but I had this newfound fondness for them. They made me feel and think more. I began to be emotionally engrossed with the characters and the story from beginning to end. I would criticize a show so intensely and ask myself why or how I managed to finish it (The Lonely Shinning Goblin, Hwarang). I was just having so much fun discussing and writing what I thought about the dramas that I felt like I was actually doing things, writing about things that I actually love. I was happy.
Lingerie Girls’ Generation
I was obsessed with that feeling. I wanted to feel more of it. I wanted to discover more, so I decided to watch more. It came to a point where I had Chicago Typewriter, Ruler–Master of the Mask, Suspicious Partner, Lookout, Fight My Way, and Circle on my currently watching list.
It was at that point that I began to feel like I was wasting too much time on dramas that apparently meant nothing to me. I wanted to feel things but sadly, the dramas were giving me the same old thing. It was becoming disappointing, being annoyed at those what-the-hell-are-you-doing-with-your-interesting-concept moments (Reunited Worlds, While You Were Sleeping, Tomorrow With You). I wanted escape, but I ended up just being frustrated. I was disappointed in the fiction I had consumed. Soon, I realized I was no longer productive during weekends. I was wasting important time and frustrated at the reality I had put myself into.
But the last half of 2017 changed my perspective. I was given dramas that felt alive and real (Age of Youth 2, Lingerie Girls’ Generation). I was given stories that threw me into a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts (Rescue Me, Circle). It gave me dramas that were so simple but satisfied my heart completely (Because This Life Is Our First).
Age of Youth 2
It was a turning point, slowly realizing what I actually wanted in life and well, in dramas. It was no longer about overanalyzing the bad and the good. It was no longer about sulking because of what I have failed to do or realize. It was just about having that emotional connection with a story and its characters. It was about appreciating and relating to reality through a fictional lens. It was learning that things could change if I think differently.
2017 made me realize that I need not have much to actually feel things. I learned to not seek for more, but to look for what I actually need or can do in order to feel more alive. To appreciate and understand that the small things can have a great impact in life. And lastly, that something better can happen in life despite everything that I have experienced.
So I welcome 2018 with a new perspective, a more open and determined mind, while savoring new dramas and new moments that speak to me.
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1 WishfulToki
December 19, 2017 at 8:18 PM
Absolutely lovely writing, thank you. I turned to slice of life dramas this year precisely because I learned that what I really wanted was "To appreciate and understand that the small things can have a great impact in life."
2017 was indeed a year of journey through highs and lows. I think everyone felt the frustration you describe in the middle. We have been fortunate that the year is ending with a good crop of dramas (though no historical drama 😢).
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elric
December 21, 2017 at 12:54 AM
This was also the year that I wanted to watch sageuks. I read Rebel was good and also Queen for Seven Days but I was not able to watch them.
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2 giocare 🌻💛
December 19, 2017 at 8:30 PM
Thank you so much for sharing this with us, it was beautifully written. The line that resonated with we was "It was just about having that emotional connection with a story and its characters. It was about appreciating and relating to reality through a fictional lens." Whether I'm watching a thriller, a slice of life, a family drama or a romcom, I desperately want to feel something. I love discovering characters who are unapologetically real ( like Oh Hae Young) and own up to it.
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elric
December 20, 2017 at 10:14 PM
Thank you also for this comment. I have been reading about Oh Hae-young and her personality, and it's making me curious if I should watch it.
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3 You-Know-Who
December 19, 2017 at 10:10 PM
This is a really great piece. I find it funny and weird that when I was reading this I feel like this is something that I would write; it exactly mirrors my thoughts. And dramas that I watched and how I felt about them. Really. No joke. Starting from the very beginning when you mentioned that have a new found fondness for Korean dramas, even though you they're not exactly new to you. I was like, I know how that feels. It's that thing where you have been watching Kdramas or any other tv shows (in my case, also Jdoramas) for more than 10 years (or for too long) and it feels like you've grown older and your interest or taste matured 'cause you've seen to many shows, and you became more mature. Unlike in the past, you can't stand those dramas with the same old plot anymore — copying your examples, Reunited Worlds and While You Were Sleeping (I dropped those, btw) — that you watch just too simply kill time and to criticize them. You began to look for more substance, meaning something close to reality, something you can relate with, and something that will make you reflect. And that's exactly how I feel. I confessed that even right now, I still feel like I should be watching this certain amount of dramas just because I'm used to watching that many; like I need fillers even if that means wasting my time on mediocre ones. But as time goes on, I'm beginning to realize I can't force myself anymore and so the list of the dramas that I'm dropping is becoming longer lol.
Anyway, that became a long post haha. But one last thing, your post actually inspired and encouraged me to submit a post here as well. So for that, I thank you.
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You-Know-Who
December 19, 2017 at 10:22 PM
Btw, if I'm right about us having similiar taste in dramas, then you would totally love Prison Life if you haven't watched it. It's that gem-kind of drama. You know, the kind of drama that would get you addicted to the point that you wish that there are new episodes everyday — ehem, wishing for faster subs -— because it makes all warm inside and also makes you reflect on life. You fall in love with the characters and you wish that you can watch their world or the story of their life forever. Plus it's just different 'cause it's a prison environment but it's very sentimental not exactly the dramatic kind of sentimental but it's just....just watch it lol.
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elric
December 20, 2017 at 9:43 PM
Thank you for that lovely comment. I also dropped Reunited Worlds and While You Were Sleeping. When I start to feel like I'm wasting time and I don't feel emotionally invested anymore, I no longer hesitate in dropping a drama. Back then I wanted a complete watching experience but when you are constantly disappointed episode after episode, it's best to just drop it.
Prison Life is actually on my to watch list. However, I'm trying to finish Secret Forest first before I start watching it.
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4 mintful
December 19, 2017 at 10:21 PM
I'm with you in this. This year I found what kind of drama I relate to the most or enjoyed watching. I found out I always have a soft spot for dramas about warmth of families and friendship while I'm picky with romance.
I also found out I don't like legal dramas (tried a bunch of times, dropped them all). That fear of missing out a good drama because everyone is talking about it but I couldn't feel its charm isn't strong anymore, it's simply just not my cup of tea, afterall!
In the end it's about being able to relate and to live through the characters for me.
that something better can happen in life despite everything that I have experienced
Thank you for the reminded <3
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elric
December 20, 2017 at 10:19 PM
"That fear of missing out a good drama because everyone is talking about it but I couldn't feel its charm isn't strong anymore, it's simply just not my cup of tea, after all!"
This is why I wanted to watch so many dramas. I wanted to know what everybody was talking about or if I was missing something good. But as you said, "In the end it's about being able to relate and to live through the characters for me."
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5 javinne
December 20, 2017 at 1:08 AM
Very very very good piece of writing, very emotional.
Thank you!
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6 redfox
December 20, 2017 at 2:04 AM
looks like you had a little bit of anxiety going on and not living in the moment and taking the mot of it but always worrying about something else. I think since our life will end anyway some day there is no point feeling quilty about "wasting time". we waste all our time, mostly on working and not living. We´ve been programmed to be productive. It takes me a few trips to the forest to realize nobody can demand anything from me, I don´t "have to" a thing, my life is mine, and whatever I decide to do with it is not "wasting time" that concept expresses you "time" belonging to someone or something other than yourself. In the foret I feel alive, my thoughts are free and in that way stories, dramas, fantasie are like the forest.
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Lixie
December 20, 2017 at 4:08 AM
Well said :)
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elric
December 21, 2017 at 4:05 PM
Thank you for the advice. I have occasionally battle with my emotions, and reading, watching, and writing have always been my forms of escape.
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7 bogumlips
December 20, 2017 at 6:18 AM
I never enjoyed a drama more this season then Because This Life Is Our First. It was quirky and laugh out loud funny. EVERY character story i cared about which most of you know is RARE. I would love a second season but i don't want to temp fate on this already great show by being greedy
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elric
December 20, 2017 at 10:20 PM
Because This Life Is Our First is truly a gem worth watching.
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bogumlips
December 21, 2017 at 4:11 PM
It really was :)
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8 PakalanaPikake
December 20, 2017 at 7:44 AM
Thanks for writing, @elric!
"It was just about having that emotional connection with a story and its characters. It was about appreciating and relating to reality through a fictional lens."
For me, the hallmark of a satisfying story, poem, drama, or film is that it touches my soul and makes me feel. I don't know why it is that Kdrama does that for me, but in many cases it does. Maybe it's han, which feels strangely familiar. Whatever it is, it's compounded by thoughtful discussion with fellow Beanies such as yourself. I never know where I'll find inspiration and insight, but they crop up from time to time in Kdrama dialogue and the conversations here in the recap threads. I'm truly grateful for that. Thanks again for writing. ;-)
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elric
December 20, 2017 at 10:02 PM
I never know where I'll find inspiration and insight, but they crop up from time to time in Kdrama dialogue and the conversations here in the recap threads.
This is why I love fiction or even any sort of media/genre. When you read people's perspective, it makes you think and evaluate. They inspire and they give strength. They make you feel things.
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9 imbuk
December 20, 2017 at 8:07 AM
So beautifully written!
❤️❤️❤️
I think this was the year that I truly felt grateful for kdramas.
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elric
December 20, 2017 at 10:03 PM
Thank you so much! May we also have good memories in 2018.
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10 Tom
December 20, 2017 at 3:05 PM
@elric
Beautiful post.
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elric
December 20, 2017 at 10:22 PM
Thank you!
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11 🍙 kimbap noona
December 21, 2017 at 5:19 AM
Beautifully written and wonderfully introspective, and many of your thoughts and experience with dramas this year resonated much with me. Thank you for sharing your journey with us, elric!
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12 Topbest101
December 22, 2017 at 3:31 AM
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